Being a woman or I guess a human, I am definitely prone to depression once in a while. I’ll go probably a whole month or more feeling ecstatic and happy with life but then it will all come crashing down.
Lately, I have been completely absorbed in the world of Netflix. My emotions are up and down and left and right. I watch shows like Revenge and The New girl, wondering when my life is going to get interesting. Same thing when I read blogs and watch YouTube videos. It seems like everyone is busy living their lives and I am over here wasting my time watching a screen.
I know there isn’t a specific point when life begins (except when you are born/conceived) so I can’t say what I am waiting for. I feel like at this age I should have a ton of things going on and should be spending time with people but I am actually just spending the majority of my time alone.
There is mental block in my way that I can’t see through or get around. All I know is what I do, and I do what I know. I need a change.
I didn’t realize that being a newlywed would completely change my social life. (I did to some degree, though.) Not just being married but maturing over the last few years has caused me to be completely irritated at spending time with a room full of college students.
I have two classes to finish before I graduate in December and I will finally be free. I am hoping that, that is the point where life begins for me and it will become a lot more interesting. School makes me feel extremely tied down.
I’ve made small efforts in trying to get out of my life rut, but they are things that will take time to progress in the right direction. At this point, I am in the downhill slope looking up at something that seems completely impossible. But I know it’s just an optical illusion from where I am standing and soon I will be on top of the next hill.
No comments:
Post a Comment